My Spirit was gone with her

I never thought that she meant so much for me....
but....as time goes by.....as i feel that i was attached to her most.
Every night i awake and i remember her.
the happy times.....it was so nice, but.... the last it was so painful for me, it hurts me alot.
My happiness is gone with her.
I know she didn't want me like this, but i can't help it.

Now, i'm just waiting and hoping that i can go there to be with her again.
holding her hands.....keep myself in her arms again....caress her hairs and kiss her.
My love.....i miss you so much.
I'm just counting my days...and waiting for Him to call me too.
So we can be together again in heaven.....forever.

I love you.

Missed Mom ...

That night, Troy missed his mommy very much.
so he find his mom's shirt and wear it as a blanket.
he hugged it and felt asleep till morning.

The Tombstone

Finally, the tombstone finished when i went to the cemetary.

it's not really finished yet. But, almost done.
I sat there alone, praying...and remember all the things we have been
through together.
We always face the world together hand in hand.
We always handle all problems with holding hands.
Our bond was so strong.
I love you my soulmate...you are my everything.

My wife's Birthday

Last Sunday was her birthday,
That night, I was reminding my son about his mom's birthday...he looked at me in silence and then started to cry ... i dont know why, but i follow to cry. We cried and
we hugged each others.
Well, it sounds like we both are like a child. But actually....we are. :)

After we can control ourselfs, me & my son celebrating by praying together
in our bedroom... it was really the longest pray and most tears ever.
This was the 110th days since she left us.

Everyday and night, we still remember of her.
She was my everything, she was my light of my life and love.

Our Memory - Australia 2004

The flower

on Sunday we visit the cemetary...

My mother in law & Jess.

My son, Troy, Jess & Tasha.

Our Memory - Malaysia 2007

SinarMas Group Friends

Good friends can never be forget.

Property 21 Friends

Here are some photos of her friends at Property 21.
Hope someday when they see this picture, they can remember
the good memory when being together.

Bye Honda, Welcome Suzuki -

Finally i changed my car, from Honda Stream to Suzuki SX4
Brand new but cheaper....:)
The Honda was too old, it's been 5 yrs now. It's time to change it...The same black color....:))